. ihikss..

..I'm so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
I'm so scared of letting go
That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop..

I'm afraid that you will leave
As my secrets have been revealed
In my dreams you'll always stay
Every breathing moment from now..

*sigh*
it gets worse last night..
ok, i tried to be more understanding and put down my selfishness for wanting him just for me. dunno.. i guess it's because i was conditioned to spend my days with him on every second i take then suddenly now i have to share him with this things called 'business'. right, so damn suddenly. jadi rasanya kaya berada di sebuah pulau tropis yang panas, dimana biasanya ada kipas angin yang bikin aku ga kepanasan dan sekarang kipas angin itu ngga ada secara tiba².. *hmpf*

I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

heheh.. jadi inget jaman dulu. ditambah lagi skarang aku lagi bawa agenda toyota yg dibelakangnya ada tulisan carut marutnya dia di taksi dulu.. *i need to type the theory of assertivity inside it, that's why i bring it now!*
.. ga tau juga ya apa dia skrg masih inget apa yang dia tulis dulu itu. mm.. probably he forgot, karena mungkin tulisan itu cuma sekedar tulisan.

"..dan gue rela nglepasin apapun yang gue punya buat kalian -xXx- "

oh well.. at least bagaimana seseorang meninggalkan satu hari ujian yang ga bisa seenaknya ditinggal demi menemui kekasihnya di luar kota karena sedang tejadi masalah diantara mereka walaupun seseorang itu harus berangkat malam² sekali dan harus salah naik bus karena ditipu ama kondektur bus sempat berhasil membuat aku merasa istimewa.


*heavysigh*
face it, stupid. people change.


I cannot hold back
The truth no more
I let you wait too long
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more



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*waduh, ilustrasi lagunya kok lagu boyband?? #-o #-o*